A very long week

Well let me first start off by saying I am sorry for not posting in over a week. A lot of things have been happening and time just flew by. This past weekend the Army sent our family on an all expense paid marriage retreat. We were very hesitant to attend because of Faith's current condition, however we were so lucky to have some friends also attend who have three kids also and they all get along so well. Their son suffers from Bi-Polar also and was able to give some great words of encouragement to Faith. Renae and I learned the 5 love languages and really got to relax for the first time since I don't know when. We did not have to worry about any of the children and they had a blast. Wonderful, wonderful weekend. Thanks to our friends and my unit for allowing us to attend. It was a wonderful tune up to an already great marriage Faith lost it upon our return home. Transitions are and absolute nightmare for her. She has not recovered since. We are calling The Brook hospital daily to see if they have an opening. We hope she can hold out but we just are not sure. It really seems at times that whatever is going on in her head is slowly driving her insane. It is a never ending circle. She does not feel right, she can't go to school because she cannot control her emotions and/or rages, this stresses her out even more, which makes her feel worse. The bad feelings and anxiety fuel each other until she finally passes out. And there is nothing we can do. We finally got an appointment with a new psychologist next week who has been successfully diagnosing children's mood disorders for over 30 years. We are hoping maybe he can find something that we have been missing. We also finally, after over six months, got the referral to a neurologist at the Vanderbilt Children's Hospital in Nashville, TN. Renae and I have just made a commitment to try any and everything to find out exactly what is wrong with her in the hopes that she will quit suffering so much. That is why it is so important for you to help us spread the word about this blog and Faith's Story. I talk about all of this to my friends, neighbors, co-workers and anyone who will listen since we decided to "go public" with Faith's story and no one understands or can believe this is happening to such a sweet and innocent girl. But it is true. I will do almost anything but post video of her, that would be too personal and embarrassing for her and I do not want to hurt her. I will just try to explain it with words as we go along a little more on this journey. Please talk about her to anyone and anything that will listen. I know the dog we are trying to get will not cure her, but I am sure it will help her overcome this anxiety that is fueled by her Bi-polar. I just want to be able to get her out of the house so all of us can go help other children who are going crazy on the inside but look normal on the outside. I promise to figure out again how to post paragraphs and pictures to this blog in the next couple of weeks so I can log this journey better. thanks to everyone for your support and kind words, we could not do it without you.....krisandrenae