ups and downs....

It has been a week of up and downs...Faith had a great week of almost "too good" of a mood...now it is ups and downs of feeling euphoric and then really bad. It is absolutely exhausting on Renae because all she wants is someone to help her...or more or less be there with her why she is hurting so bad. We were talking with the doctor and there is no doubt in his mind, as in ours, that there is some type of atypical mood disorder going on in her brain that she is not able to communicate to us, nor is she able to transition in and out of it at all. Not to mention a lot of the things that go on verbally and physically are "learned" behaviors or behaviors that get the type of responses she needs from her body and from us. However it is tough to work on correcting the behaviors and feelings if we cannot find out exactly what is hurting her nor are we able to find a combination of medicine and behavior therapy to help with it. We are going to the bank to draw a personal loan to pay for the service dog. I have decided to use the titles on the cars for collateral until we can work on fundraising to pay for the dog. My window of opportunity is closing faster than I realized it would. The only time I will be able to go to California with Faith to train and get certified with her dog is July of this year or December. I will be leaving early next year for another deployment and I want to be here the initial training and the weekly follow up training for both her and the dog. Me being gone is hard enough on Renae I want the dog and Faith to be working great as a team before I leave. Little Angels Service Dogs is a non profit organization so my loan check will go to them. As I raise donations then Little Angels will send checks to payoff the loan so that when it is all said and done the dog will be given to Faith at no or little expense to us. I wonder if I don't make the payment would the dog get repossessed? Hahaha I am not worried about it. I would sell everything I owned to help my daughter, what is money if I don't have it anyway or your kid is not healthy to enjoy what it can provide. I will do anything to help her with this hidden disability and I personally think that once we have the dog and people see how it works it will be easier to get donations. Have a great weekend!!! kris