Thanksgiving weekend....

We had a wonderful weekend. I haven't posted in a few days since there is nothing new to update about. We are back to daily meltdowns that do not end until Faith is passed out with exhaustion. We still cannot figure out what triggers them, I wish I knew. Faith can feel them coming but we still cannot stop them. She just cannot calm down. Lately she is screaming at the top of her lungs...it really hurts our ears. She is yelling at us to help her, but there is nothing we can do, so it is an never ending circle of arguments with her. "Mommy you are mean, you will not help me", "I will do anything I can do to help you"...followed by a bunch of possible solutions to try and help her. The hard part is it stresses everyone out...I am the one that wants to try different things, approaches, or anything since nothing is working. Renae is the opposite, she doesn't want to and thinks I am saying she can control it. It is tough to make sure we do not argue under these stressful situations. It becomes very easy to take out my anger and frustration on anyone around. The key is to make sure you talk about these situations when all is calm and no one makes decisions in haste and frustration. We have appointments on Wednesday with Faith's new doctors. I am excited to have someone offer some fresh perspectives on Faith. One thing that is also excited is that almost weekly someone contacts us to talk about something similar in their family. Even though every mood disorder is different one common denominator is we all are scared, we all have no one to talk to that understands, and we all are glad to meet someone to share our experiences and stresses with. It is nice to know there are other families out there that are walking our walk, not just talking the talk. KrisandRenae

It didn't last....

We had a good couple of days, but it has ended. Right now Faith is on the couch yelling at the top of her lungs that she is stressed and we do not understand. It is yelling that actually hurts our ears. Tess had to stop what she was doing and take Abbi upstairs because she is scared. I am not going to say what she is yelling now, just believe me if we weren't so calloused to these words and phrases coming out of her in these rages they would really hurt. She has no clue what set her off, she does not remember, she is just going from one thing to another as far as a topic. We can't talk to her, or even look at her, but she wants us in the room to hear these screams. It is crazy. Something I will never get used to as a parent. If a stranger or someone were to witness this it would probably leave an everlasting scare, or image in their mind that would never leave. How can such a sweet little girl have such anger, hate, and rage come out of her body for no reason at all? It sucks, I wish I could take it from her forever. It has been going on for thirty minutes with no sign of a letdown. I wish there was an instant medicine to give her to put her into sleep, not possible, and I believe if it was she would just wake up with and start where she left off. Hope everyone has a good evening. Kris and Renae

A great weekend.....

We had a wonderful weekend as a family. Faith made it almost two entire days now without a meltdown. She was able to get out of the house and go spend Saturday afternoon with some friends. She absolutely loves playing with them. This allowed Renae to spend the afternoon on a mommy-daughter date with Abbi. They had a blast!! Then Tess had two friends sleep over on Saturday night. The house was lively and it was one of the few times all three of my daughters got along. Renae and just laid in bed, watched football, and hung out. It was nice. Renae went shopping all afternoon Saturday and I hung out with my ladies. The things we use to take for granted are what can make a house a happy one.KrisandRenae

Looking for assistance....

I am starting today to reach out to organizations for assistance and guidance. It is a long process, but I figure I should get help from at least 1 out of every 100 I ask. Will keep you posted. Kris