here it goes again.....

It has been a while but here we go again. Faith is in a downward spiral right now. All we can do is support her and be there for her until she feels better. She is depressed and to be honest Renae and I think some is her bipolar cycling and the other is her struggles she is having in school because of missing last year. She is a perfectionist and school is hard. She is also not on anything to help her concentrate and keep her from bouncing on the walls at school. She is in one of her vicious cycles that has not hope of stopping. She feels bad...she gets depressed...she misses school...she does bad in school...she feels like she is a failure...she gets mad...she goes into a uncontrollable rage...and it goes on and on. Cass can only help her so much. He cannot do much help when she goes into a rage. Tonight she tried to rely on him but it just wasnt working. This was expected but it is so difficult to see her doing so well and then see her spiral out of control so quickly. We knew it would have to happen...such is the deal with Mood Disorders...but no matter how much experience you have or how much anticipation or warning you have....I can NEVER be able to handle it...I can NEVER be able to watch her suffer....and unfortunately I will NEVER be able to take the pain for her. Kris