A great few days....

I have not posted since Christmas, I think I needed the few days off. It has been a great few days. Sometimes with mood disorders you are able to forget they exist if not for a day or two, at least for a few hours. Faith has felt really good. Maybe not totally good, but she seems to be handling the issues a lot better the last couple of days. We spent all day yesterday together, just me and her. We drove to Nashville, got lost for a while, and sold and bought some things off of Craigslist. For the first time in a long time we just got lost in conversation. Laughing and telling stories and asking questions. It was a great time. She is such a fighter. You could see her sometimes just sitting in the front seat and squeezing her hands as tightly as she could like she was about to punch someone. She never said nothing but you could see her fighting just to be able to enjoy the drive. Her skin seems to feel funny lately, maybe a side effect of the new medicine, and she puts lotion on a lot. She seems happier though, so it is one of the things we have to talk over with her, are the side effects worth the feeling better? Tough decisions for a ten year old to make, but she is mature enough and has experienced enough that she will be the only person making those decisions, not Renae or I. In this journey I want to share the happy stuff too. She has been laughing a lot more the last week or two. The meltdowns are down and I am hoping it is because of the new medicine. I know as she gets older she will be able to use tools to help so that she does not have to rely on medicines, but for now it is great to see my daughter laugh and play with her sisters. I can honestly say this has been one of the best holidays I have ever experienced. One because of my awesome family, two because of where I am in my life and maturity, and third because as I get older I am dealing with my own issues better and appreciating the little things in life better. Money does not buy happiness, freedom and a true since of appreciation, along with an unconditional love from your wife and kids has made me the happiest I have ever felt. Kris