Monday Blues

It was a beautiful weekend here in Kentucky. The kids played outside from sunup to sundown, all in perfect fall weather. Today started a new week, the kids went back to school. Faith was unable to go. She was terrified that she would have these "demon feelings" while at school like she has had the last week. Well she knew something was coming that we did not. I got a call from Renae around 3pm at work and she asked me to come home. Faith had locked her and the girls out of the house and was running around inside screaming and throwing stuff. Her screaming and rage continued until around 6:30 pm until she was so exhausted she decided to go to bed. These are normally things that we do not share. These episodes are scary for us and very embarrassing for Faith. All three of us have decided that it is necessary to share these things as they happen so that people who do not live with these "hidden disabilities" can try to understand why our kids do not go to school, or why we might come to work with a huge bite mark on us, or why we cannot make it to the barn in the evening because I cannot leave Renae alone at home for fear of her getting hurt. It is also important that people understand the impact it can and does have on the other family members. A long forgotten rule of life is that family is there for you no matter what through thick and thin. I guess with today's society, just like in divorce, it is easier to just turn the other way and walk away. We have made a promise to Faith that we will never do that, although sometimes it can be the hardest thing in the world to keep this promise. And at what extent do you keep it? What happens when she grows up more and me nor Renae can protect her from herself. One thing I found ironic today was again she showed me her love of animals. She was definitely throwing and kicking things through one of her venting sessions, and one of the dogs came towards her.....she looked and it and calmed just for a second to allow it to pass...and then carried on. She can be so angry at the world for this stuff that goes on in her mind and yet she won't even kill an ant. Well we will keep you posted. We are hoping to take a tour of The Brook, a hospital in Louisville, KY. They have the opening for Faith next month, we just hope we can help her hold out long enough for that opening.

It has been a very long week for our family. The girls are their "Fall break" and staying at home and enjoying playing outside. Faith has had an extremely hard time, thus the reason for not writing in a while. It got so bad we drove to Louisville, KY Wednesday to get her assessed in hopes of being admitted. They have a program that will work for her, a partial hospitalization, however they do not have a bed open for another few weeks. Hopefully she can hold out. The people here at Fort Campbell, EFMP and CAPSj have been tremendous in helping us find a suitable hospital. There is also a retired gentleman who works for a hospital out of Virginia who is also trying to find us one closer to home. We will keep you posted on how this is going. At the same time Katie with Little Angels is making a little story of Faith on her website that will allow friends and families to make donations towards the dog. I will post a link when it is up. Our neighbor is putting a benefit ride together with his motorcycle club here for a fundraiser also. This should be really exciting for Faith, she just loves Harley Davidsons!!

mobile blogging?

This is a test...to see if this mobile blogging works. It will truely allow us to tell Faith's story and share more pictures.

Cheerleading and Yard Sales

This morning Faith had a game to attend with her cheerleader squad. It was freezing!! She did not make it through the entire game, I believe mainly because of the cold. Today was a post wide garage sale so we drove through some neighborhoods and then the girls decided to have their own yard sale. They made beaded bracelets to sale in hopes of raising money for Faith's dog. It was a great day.

We are also getting the information from Katie at Little Angels Service Dogs on exactly how to donate to Faith's dog. You will recieve paperwork from them to submit when filing taxes. I know a few of our friends have asked already however I will get the specifics and post as soon as possible.  Kris and Renae